Liquid Lights Wrote:
> "...whatever. I've always cared, Sey, and I don't know why- it just doesn't piss me off anymore."
She was silent as she stared incredulously at his back while he spoke with a candor that was unprecedented in the seven years that she'd known him. Seven years they'd known each other, nearly dying thousands of times in their collection of misadventures - and it took him... this long to say all of this?
Before she truly realized what she was doing, her legs had halved the distance between them, heels clicking against the hardwood in a determined rapid pace. Once again, she reached out to grab him and her hand clenched around his arm, yanking the demon back from the window to face her and using all of the strength that she could muster without her magic.
Her face was flushed, shoulders held back, eyes flashing brightly and teeth clenched as the whole of her petite self exuded an emotion she so often held tightly underfoot:
Anger.
"Well it pisses me off!" Sey yelled, her free hand rearing back as she dragged him around, slapping him hard on the cheek.
"Just because it took you so long to get over yourself... Some of us were suffering you know!" She couldn't help herself as the tears welled in her eyes, dangerously close to falling from her black lashes. The words that rushed from her trembling mouth were words she'd been wanting to say for months - no, years - and there was nothing she could do to stop them now that she'd started.
"After Samael and the Forgotten One... After the Temple was destroyed, I was alone. You left me to suffer alone; even after what you did!" Her head shook as her bitter laugh cut through the air, the tears in her eyes shaken lose at the movement and she let go of his arm as her anger rose at her body's traitorous tears. She suffered alone for eight months and fourteen days in a wheelchair, back broken, soul the battleground for the great siege that had not ended for her after she was knocked from the sky by lightning.
Months of suffering and she still gave more grievance over their first and last kiss. Her fist real kiss with no magic infused to sedate anyone.
"And then when I left the Temple after you punched Him-" Her voice cracked a moment and her hands tightened into fists, the white mage's shoulders trembling as though she was struggling to hold back the urge to slug him in the face just as he did her God all those years ago.
Each point she brought up had so many memories, so many emotions attached to them. She had left everything she knew in this world for a chance to live a normal life. For a chance to experience love and live for herself - something that she could not do if she stayed and accepted the ultimatum of her God. She took that chance greedily... But he wasn't there when she searched for him.
"Nothing. There was absolutely no sign of you anywhere. And now you say you care? Now you're making an effort to CARE!?" It was clear in her tone of voice that her anger was abating to sadness, the immense amount of sorrow she felt originally hidden by her fiery outburst. There was no way that the innumerable tear-filled nights and spurned emotions could be truly hidden in her words, not when they held so much stock in her heart.
"*I loved you Stryphe*. I didn't care that you were a demon, I didn't even care that you had fought my God. I brushed off what everyone was saying about how you would simply hurt me and I fell for you.
I let you talk me into fighting in Heaven or Hell. I let myself make you the reason why I went crawling back to Falis, to beg him for his help in saving your bullet filled body."
She, in her weakness, let her emotions compromise her principals and now she was here living with the consequences. Back under the yolk of her destiny as a White Mage and once more the dutiful handmaiden of her God, Sey had learned her lesson from the cruelness of his absence.
And she would make sure that he knew perfectly well how she had felt all these years.
"*I* have always cared, Stryphe Ebrowen Epothos! And if you dare to claim the same then... then... I haven't slapped you hard enough!"