She only realized some seconds later that she was actually awake. Squinting into the semi-darkness of her room - through the rice-paper slidingdoor fell dusty, muffled sunlight and painted blurry patterns on the wooden floor -, Lucind felt her temples and forhead faintly throbbing, her mouth was dry and she needed to go somewhere.
Sighing she heaved herself into a sitting position, her hair sticking out in all directions and yawned heartyly. How late was it? Late morning, she supposed.
She stood up, shuffled to the window, slid the pale-green curtains open and stared out on the graveled back-yard, which was almost empty besides the well and a small stone garden in the corner of the wall. She used that place for concentration and balance exercises: different sequels of flowing, t'ai chi like motions, the meditation form of her fighting style.
Her eyes twitched when she heard someone outside. Short after, the door was slowly opened and Sarah's head emerged. "Oh, our coma patient has returned to the living people," she smiled but vanished again, only to return with a small mug, passing it over to Lucind. The Half-Siren sniffled, then carefully sipped on the hot jasmine tea. "Thank you. - Uhm, where is everybody? It's so quiet..."
"Oh, Dodo and Alice went to Harmet, Rebecca is up in her room and Granny is watching TV."
Lucind raised one eyebrow. "Then it's not morning anymore."
Sarah giggled. "No. You almost slept a whole day. It's half past four. - I can prepare a bath. And then something light to eat? What do you say?"
"Sounds great," Lucind nodded and added,"I think I can call me damn lucky to have a place like this..."
Sarah placed a hand on Lucind's shoulder and gently squeezed it. "We're glad you're back. - Now, I'll call you when the water has the right temperature.^^"
Lucind simply hmm-ed and watched her leaving the room. Absently starring out of the window again, she drank the rest of her tea then sat down on her bed and curled up on it once more. When Sarah opened the sliding door a quarter later, Lucind had dozen off but nevertheless directly headed outside, to first take a quick shower and then dive into the rather luke warm water - with no more than 30 �C, just the way she liked it.
Later, Lucind sat outside of her room on the wooden terrace, leaning against a post. Now with body and soul restored, her mind returned to the previous day.
The memories are already fading, she thought. They were sipping into the depths of the Final Sea, the collective unconscious, until only the most basic facts would remain stored in her mind.
If I didn't have the possibilty to seal different past scenes, I would forget so many important things. But I don't want to forget...
Images of the mayhem in the stadium came back. But not only mental pictures, it was more as if she experienced those minutes again, drowning herself in half-vanished emotions. She could see...see people panicking, being killed. She could perceive that prominet scent of iron. She felt again how soft the hair of Maximos as a boy was, although she'd never really touched it. Again, she stood in the river, singing her farewell.
"I..don't want to...forget. ....I mustn't..."
"Lucind. Stop that."
Lucind blinked and ceased staring into nowhere. Turning her head she saw Granny standing in the door of the living-room, leaning on her staff, her eyes focussing on Lucind with a serious gleam in them.
"You know, my dear child, it's not the first time I've got to tell you that it's a real bad habit to feed on the intense recollection of yours," the old woman spoke calmly, her voice a bit hoarse, but with a criticizing undertone in it.
"I know, I know." The blue haired woman broke the eyecontact, her look wandering down and fixing somewhere on the grass down under.
"What is it good for, eh? Do you think it improves your skills being taken up in past feelings, straining nerves and mind on purpose? That it prepares you for the next encounter when you're dwelling on memories, go through them instead of just thinking of the occurrences and draw the rational conclusion from them?" Granny still hadn't moved.
While the old lady was speaking, Lucind opened her mouth and wanted to answer. Then she sighed and one could see her jaw muscles working.
"Nana, I don't want to forget all those moments I read in someone's soul. I owe them at least this, to honour every single soul for giving me more experience and knowledge for my future life and my missions."
The took breath for she had spoken quickly and she couldn't deny she tried to defend herself in some way. She glanced at Granny.
"You know, it's...it's only human."
"No." Granny raised her eyebrows and continued gazing down at Lucind.
"No, Lucind. When your mind invades another mind or even another soul, you aren't human. That's the salient point."
"But don't you think it's a great opportunity that I am able to fall back on both of my sides: Sirenic and human?! To combine both point of views?"
She disliked the fact she sounded almost desperate, revealing through it that she knew she couldn't really stand up for her statements.
"Oh, of course this is an opportunity. You're one of the most skilled Half-Sirens in this world, you're still learning and getting stronger - you will make your way. But that doesn't mean you have to mentally torture yourself." Her voice had changed and expressed the gentle smile on her lips.
Lucind hugged her knees towards her chest and when she was about to reply something else, Granny kept her from doing so and slowly walked over, her staff thumping on the floor.
"There, there, enough for now - the images are still too fresh. - Now, lemme see, my dear..." With that, she slighty touched Lucind's shoulder and, when the the Half-Siren raised her head, deeply stared into those amber orbs for several seconds.
She nodded as if she had found just what she had expected, then patted Lucind's head and grinned - and suddenly the old woman's face had lost that wise touch and Granny reminded of a mischievous gnome like when Lucind and Rebecca had arrived yesterday.
Lucind managed to smile back at her, stood up and stretched languidly. She wanted to return to her room, but stopped and addressed Granny again.
"Please, don't tell Larhien..."
"Hahaha, sure I won't do that. He's grumpy 'nough whenever I see him, this hothead bwahahahahaaaa..haa..eh....OH! Now it came back what I wanted to tell you: He was here^^v"
"What?! Larhien was here? And you forgot to tell me?o_O?"
"Yeaaah...see, he was here when Dodo and Alice left and Sarah took a bath, so I was the only one to welcome your brother. Showed him you were still comatose, therefore he left after some minutes. You shall send him a message when you're awake^____^"
Blinking, Lucind scratched her head. "Uhm, sure. Will do that." Slowly shaking her head she watched Granny waddling back into the living room, then hopped down the terrace to find a willing mail-bird.