As she leaned in, he mirrored her movement, bringing them practically nose to nose for a moment. Maximos face was unsure, his eyes looked at her with a kind of 'Uhhh, what now?' awkwardness as his own innocence about such matters made him helpless for the moment.
Not that Teira was any more experienced, but she'd been around a certain godling and a certain demoness enough to get some ideas that allowed for her new sense of humour. Which when combined with her usual naivety and abandon were a potentially potent pairing. But quips were as far as she went. Spouting her natural wit was an easy thing, and it was gratifying to score some small measure of revenge for everything he'd just put her through. But she was just as innocent in THAT matter as when she'd left. She might not have been... Ra'kar had certainly been willing to rob her of that, but Victor had said no, much to the demoness' discontent.
She moved to lean back, leaning forward that close with a whole body in the way was uncomfortable, but as she moved back, he moved forward.
A gentle touch on her double's hip made her pause, startled between a choke and a squeak. She blinked at Maximos as he pressed forward.
'W-w-whaa?!'
This wasn't like him at all.
It was so uncharacteristic of him that it left her half dazed and backtracking as she tried to figure out how to react. Her brother had been indulging in many abnormal characteristics after all... Her gaze was torn between his eyes which had lost that helpless look and now stared at her with intensity, to glancing down at what he was doing to 'her' body.
His hand traced upwards, over her abdomen, his hand gentle but firm. Despite the fact that she couldn't feel it, the image was enough and faster than it'd left, the flush returned to her cheeks. Although, it was unsettling seeing him caress her like that, to one side of such a gruesome split.
She knew that like she could hear a hundred different tones in one note, that would never grace Maximos' ears, his hand felt things on a level that she couldn't fathom. His tactile senses enhanced by the curse his arm bore. There was something in his face, as he bit his lower lip, that hand stroking over her pale skin that made her wonder just what he felt.
The further up he reached, the closer he pressed with the rest of his body as he leaned in. She had moved back as far as she could, the coffin's back stopped her now, and the body on top of her pinned her as he bent over top of them.
If she'd had a heart, or rather a heart in -this- body, it would have been thudding in her ears.
He turned his hand to the side, and his pinky traced up his stomach to between her breasts. The sight made her shiver as his hand rested there. The action had almost looked like he was drawing an imaginary line of division-- except the split in her figure made it real.
She felt dizzy as she managed to make her mouth work...
'I'm glad.'
"N-nii-chan?"
Her voice trembled, but it wasn't due to fear. Uncertainty and something else played in her tone.
Did she want him to stop?
The very fact that she had to even ask, probably should have cleared up some of her own feelings for her...
But as she studied his face, she could see something else in his expression. She'd seen what was called 'lust' in a person's face before. She'd even seen them work had to concentrate on not succumbing to it--- but Max's focus was different. While the gestures were confusing, what she saw in his face made her try and think of other things.
She managed to ask,
"Things will feel different in this body?"
'I dont know...'
'What are you doing, nii-chan?'
She thought about what he could be trying to accomplish by doing this, and then it struck her like a smack upside the head.
"WAI--" Her protest was cut off as a large amount of pressure slammed into her chest and knocked the words out of her. Her very skin felt like a straight jacket as it constrained her. She couldn't move. And her mind raced as if it would make up for the fact, but her thoughts were interrupted by a deafening,
-POP-
Although, vaguely she noted that she was sure that there were actually 'two' pops. But such observations vanished in a beat as she was suddenly consumed with the sensation of being pierced through the chest.
"HRK!"
Her eyes widened as she coughed, and her vision wavered. She could make out Max above her, his arm thrust through the double's chest before it had run through her own. He was up to his elbow in Teira's. Deeper actually.
He was inside her alright, and as his finger splayed open, it was as if he filled that emptiness within her, he touched the darkness, the void where a heart should have beat. And he might notice that tears slipped down her cheeks even as a smile erased the expression of pain momentarily.
'It's not inaccurate...
...You reached into my darkness Nii-chan, you filled the void, YOU became my heart.'
Did she speak the words or simply think them, would they reach Maximos?
The cold began to seep in. An impossible cold, so cold it burned. It froze her veins even as the darkness dragged her under. It was painful in an odd way, it was uncomfortable and it hurt, but it was not a physical pain. This was a cold that froze the soul--
And yet,
It was familiar.
'Is this what it feels like, to be reborn?'
I lie here paralytic
Inside this soul
Screaming for you till my throat is numb
I wanna break out I need a way out
I don't believe that it's gotta be this way
The worst is the waiting
In this world I'm suffocating
Two years ago... Wrote:
But what happens when the body is too broken to fix? The once Indomitable spirit no longer so and the heart that had expanded in caring and loving... was now stretched too thin, Torn and broken.
What happens...
When the soul is destroyed. The will to exist, no more? And the fire that once burned hotter than any other flame, is nothing more than a cooling ember?
Sierra had given up.
After centuries of fighting, forgiving and of loving, her spirit had taken the final blow. Betrayed by the man who had sworn to protect her. Betrayed by the person she loved most and whom she had trusted with her heart. Betrayed so many times before... and betrayed once more, one final time.
She had fallen limp and lifeless, her eyes vacant... dead. Her heart had even ceased to beat for a brief moment, before the spirit of another had taken the reigns and pulled the body out of auto-destruct-mode.
Sierra hugged her knees tight to her chest as her body shook with silent crying. She wept for the loss of her loved ones and for the loss of herself.
It was too much. The hurt and the loss had become too great...
The darkness was soothing.
Quiet.
She had given up trying to make sense of where she was, nothing was distinguishable here. There were no ceilings or walls, no floors. She didn't really sit on anything so much as she 'floated'. She couldn't tell up from down, and instead she just drifted through the darkness.
Nothing could reach her here.
There would be no more fighting... no more hurt.
It was for the best.
Ra'kar had been right.
Ra'kar had been right all along.
It was cold then as well... And dark. Endlessly dark. It was a cold that had nothing to do with temperature and everything to do with the icy grip of despair. Of loss. Of hopelessness and the lurking presence of death creeping in as the soul wasted away. The fire that had burned for so long, now a dying ember. And as the fire died, the remnants of warmth and light were easily chased away by the crushing, cold darkness.
A pseudo immortal, an elf, who was so tired, so hurt and so broken, that she had lost her will to live. Who severed her own soul/body connection and had retreated so deep into the shadows, the darkness whose cold embrace soothed the burns and aches of life, numbed her, eased her pain. In the womb of shadow, she had mourned, her sorrow so powerful that it had caught the attention of one Maximos Dark.
He had found Sierra, a fragmented and shattered soul.
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It is such impossible darkness that calls a soul so deeply steeped in the ichor of shadow. A soul bridging the twilight between life and death. Those silent tears heard miles away and yet as close and as loud as can be.
This man was no hero, the dark it was....enticing, if not downright intoxicating. And yet it was also saddening and depressing. He could honestly not tell if this was something deep within himself lost...or someone so far outside themselves they were just as lost.
The pain, the black, the size and scale of it all was too much for the simple island boy to grasp or take in. He could not place himself there, he could not place his body in a place outside of pace. But he could speak...and speak is what he did.
A voice echoing gently in the dark, kind, yet cautious. These tears touched him deep, and moved him beyond the norm of conventional conversation. Who or why this person was didnt matter, only this pain. And an old heroes need to ease it. He spoke a sentence, barely audible, as it seemed to echo down a long dark hall and arrive as barely more than a whisper...but it would arrive. Coated in sympathy, and carried by sincerity.
Why are you crying?
He had followed a trail of tears. He had stood in the face of her pain, her hurt and her anger-- and he, a stranger, had bene the one to shoulder her burden and hold out his hand. A stranger, it was Maximos who sought her out and it was Maximos who hadn't turned his back on her.
It was he, who bore witness to Sierra's dying will. Watched helplessly as she erased her consciousness from the world. Even in her greatest moment of weakness, her will had been indomitable. She couldn't die? Then she would forget. Her mind walled off everything to protect itself. The memories, both good and bad were lost and along with it, her identity. Leaving her blank, empty. void.
'Feel your presence
Filling up my lungs with oxygen
I take you in...
I've died.'
Max, who had been unable to save 'Sierra', had ripped the fragments of her soul that were before him, and tore them out of the darkness.
He had given her a body, and he had painted that void with caring and love. He had given this new being a name...
Teiraesia Kos. The 'Mystery Girl'.
He gave Teira a home, a family, a place in the world.
Whether or not Sierra still survived somewhere, was unclear. But what was clear, was that if she did, it wasn't in Teira.
Teira was born, and from that moment, she was her own person.
Rebirthing now!
I wanna live for love, wanna live for you and me.
Breathe, for the first time now--
I come alive somehow.
He had given her life, a life worth living. He had given her purpose. He had protected her, guided her and loved her. And she had grown into an individual. A young woman with a mind of her own and a fighting spirit. He was her everything and he gave her something that Sierra had lost,
The will to endure.
To persevere.
To keep going and to survive.
He hadn't just given her life, he'd awakened in her, the will to live.
Rebirthing now!
I Wanna live my life, wanna give you everything
Breathe for the first time now--
I come alive somehow.
Right now...
...Right now
I lie here lifeless
In this cocoon
Shedding my skin cause
I'm ready to
I wanna break out
I found a way out
I don't believe that it's gotta be this way
The worst is the waiting
In this world I'm suffocating
Her body felt like a prison, a cocoon that trapped her. She couldn't move and she wanted to break free, being paralyzed is a terrifying feeling. She felt stifled, as if she were suffocating, choking.
'BREAK FREE!'
The thought was desperate even as Maximos hand grabbed hold of her soul and yanked her free, shedding her skin and exiting her old body.
It was like being rudely wakened from a sweet dream, then shoved out of your warm bed onto an icy floor of a frigid room in the dead of winter. Or jumping into a lake of ice water but multiplied by a thousand. The shock was like that, jarring and painful.
She could feel each tie being severed as she was ripped out of her shell. It was disorienting even though she felt as if she'd done this before-- when she was born. But like anything, the memory of such an event has been forgotten. Only the feeling of deja-vu told her that this wasn't the first time she'd been through this.
She felt small, impossibly small and fragile. Like a strong wind could be enough to blow her away into oblivion were it not for the icy pillars of his fingers that created a secure cage around her soul.
The soul would pulse agitatedly in Maximos' hand, rapidly, fluttering against his palm, displaying Teira's obvious irritation at her current circumstances.
It felt as if she crossed continents, traveled worlds, suspended in time for what felt like an eternity, in what was in all actuality only a matter of seconds and a few inches.
The cold melted into warmth as she was released from her icy cage. She had been deposited into what felt like a maze, but vaguely she thought, must be her new body, although the thought was rather obscure as she was still disoriented.
'Feel your presence,
Filling up my lungs with oxygen.
I take you in...
I've died.'
As her thoughts began to clear and she began to get a sense of things again, she felt herself explode outwards as her soul expanded. Growing from the tiny palm sized ball to fill every nook and cranny of this new vessel, filling it up as if it would overflow. But it didn't. It was exactly the right size and she was exactly enough soul for a perfect fit.
But before she could get her bearings, she was assaulted by a hundred different things. Feelings and all of them new--
'Rebirthing now!
I wanna live for love, wanna live for you and me.
Breathe, for the first time now--
I come alive somehow.
Rebirthing now!
I Wanna live my life, wanna give you everything.
Breathe for the first time now--
I've come alive somehow!'
She was suffocating. She didn't just feel like she was suffocating, she was. Her hands clawed at her chest, her new lungs burned with the sudden need for air, And Teira's body jerked, spasming as she sat suddenly upright, eyes impossibly wide, gasping for breath.
She breathed.
She leaned against Max and for the first time, she breathed.
The first breath was raspy and her lungs burned with a blistering sensation of pain, her whole frame shaking with the effort. But that initial breath seemed to clear the way, and the next one hurt but not as badly until she stopped breathing so heavily and gradually the breathes became soothing, cleansing.
The next sensation to overwhelm her, was her heartbeat...
Where her hands had clutched at her chest, she could feel the flutter of a pulse. And what was more, she could hear it beating like a gentle echo in her ears singing 'I'm alive, I'm alive~'
She had a heart.
And as she looked at Maximos, it skipped a beat.
The split in her body was pressed together as flesh and shadow alike knitted themselves together and the hole in her chest closed, securing all her precious new organs safely, for such things are not meant to be exposed. The brain said so.
And just as she identified where the thought had come from, it felt like her mind shattered, swept away in a tsunami of thoughts, impulses, ideas, senses, feelings. It was overwhelming, and it HURT.
"AHHHHHHGGN!"
She screamed into Max's chest as her hands went to her head and the world's worst migraine gripped her skull. Her thoughts were so loud she couldn't hear anything else-- each of them screaming at her how it was more important than the other and should be addressed first.
And then suddenly it stopped. As if some giant hand came in and squashed all the madness under it's thumb and swept the noise away. She could hear again, she could think.. but more than that she could think quiet orderly thoughts and things like breathing were second nature. She sagged with sudden relief as the subconscious split from conscious, resting against her brother as she caught her breath. Apparently screaming used up quite a lot of air...
Tell me when I'm gonna live again
Tell me when I'm gonna breathe you in
Tell me when I'm gonna feel inside
Tell me when I'm gonna feel alive
'...You tell me.'
She looked up, meeting that gentle, simple smile and answered with an echoing one. She leaned up, lifting her hands to his face as one hand cupped his cheek and the other brushed over his chin, her fingers tracing along his lips as she studied him.
Her heart raced, pounding in her chest. She hesitated for a moment, fascinated by her body's reaction even as her cheeks burned with colour. She slipped her hands from his face, tracing down his neck and over his shoulders, marveling at the sensation of his jacket's texture beneath her palms. And then, she wrapped her arms around him, pulled him down to her and raising her face to his, she pressed her lips so gently, so tenderly to his in a soft caress.
Slowly she drew back, her eyes meeting his as she smiled and settled back against him.
"Definitely different, but not in a bad way...
... Better, I think."
Tell me when I'm gonna live again
Tell me when this fear will end
Tell me when I'm gonna feel inside
Tell me when I'll feel alive
She fell quiet as she watched her chest rise and fall in time with his. Each breath bringing new scents and new tastes to her attention.
"Bath soap..."
Her voice was soft and contemplative as she smiled up at him. She had been able to smell in her previous form, but compared to this-- it seemed like a cheap knock off. This was so much richer... Underneath the scent of soap was the scent that was just him. Just Maximos. The scent of his skin, she breathed in deeply, drinking it in. It was soothing... but there was another scent. A scent that she could guess at and chose not too.
'Not right now... Just, for this moment... not yet.'
Rebirthing now!
I wanna live for love, wanna live for you and me.
Breathe for the first time now--
I come alive somehow.
Rebirthing now!
I Wanna live my life, wanna give you everything.
Breathe for the first time now--
I've come alive somehow.
I've come alive somehow~
Leaning her cheek against his chest, she listened to the rhythm of his heart, his seemed to sing in harmony with hers, a soft melody of 'We're alive! We're alive!~'
She was so happy, she had waited so long to see him again, and while their meeting was a bittersweet one, she was truly happy, truly thankful, that in this moment, they could be together.
Max was the most important thing in the whole world to her. She would fight forever to live beside him, to stay with him so that always, always they could be together.
"I love you, Nii-chan."
The smile on her face echoed the honesty and warmth of her words as she tilted her head back to look up at him, as she reached for his hand and gave it a little squeeze...
...
...
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She made a face and glanced from his hand to his face accusingly.
"Ah... Nii-chan...
... You were touching...
...and you weren't wearing gloves."